2003-04-02
A ok
Not sure what to write. I feel better. Like most thing sometimes some sleep helps put things in perspective. Like I said there is always the other side that keeps me from doing anything rash. It's the crazy half of me that freaks me out. I guess a part of me knows I am getting tired of battling my other half and that is why I guess I've finally decided to just look for some help. I was thinking what kind of therapist I should seek. I figure it will be pretty important thing, it's not like a thong which you can pick out any old thing, not that I own a thong. I think I would have someone who makes me feel comfortable and someone that seems to actually care over a very technical and clinical one. I promise that I won't coincide my demise to my last entry. That way all you diarylanders don't freak. It was just a weird idea floating in my head. I was going to send my diary address to my parents as well as my friends. Thinking about it now that might be mean spirited.I was thinking of sending it to GW Bush saying I killed myself now instead of waiting for you to kill me later.
Of course that wouldn't be the only reason. I'm not sure that would even do a dent.
Ok Just rambling and I slept in really long today. I went to bed at 12:30 and woke up at 12:30. I severly over slept. NOt sure why my body needed all that sleep. I was supposed to wake up at 9. I missed work and one class.
Thank you all for your concern, I'll get myself help and you don't have to worry. I just needed to write some of this down though so I could see it for myself.