I was reading over some old entries. It has been a while and there have been many entries.

It is odd, but I always tend to stop at the Viva portions. Seeing how I am facing possibiities of relationships I thought it best to look back at that train wreck portion of my life.

I was so blndly in love and I became such a victim of things just not working out and being crushed by the moment.

It was a difficult time in my life and so many of the frustrations of those days just seemed to build up at that point in my life.

I made out ok though and I think I am better overall for it. Granted it really hurt at the time, i wouldn't change a thing.

Like I was saying diaryland means something a lot different from what it used to.

I still have a few readers I read here, but many of my friends I have made here have moved on. Only a few remain. I'd say only 2 or 3 people I really read here that still update. I think only those still writing are still reading my diaryland account.

I decided that I would stick it out here though. Diaryland will be the place I write what I can not write anywhere else. It really won't be about holding back. It will continue what I intended it to be. It is the only diary that I never and still never give to. It is me raw.

My second journal is Live Journal. a lot of people moved and I moved too because I wanted to keep up. It probably is the most expendable and redundant diary. If anything I usually copy what I write here than I don't care about people knowing and write it there.

Finally my newest addition. Myspace. Myspace will be the journals for people in see in person in real life. That will be the address i give out. That will more or less tell everyone i know, how i am doing, yet not have all the detail. It is good because there are so many people I know that I wonder, would be interested in what is going on here in my little old life.

So complicated really. i am thinking of getting rid of LJ soon and going back to 2.