As I mentioned before I am still stuck in Maryland.
Maryland is not bad, but it's no Hawaii. I find myself missing home more and more.

It's been Over SIX months since I've been home.

I most definetly have left behind all the old ghosts in my life.

The army pretty much keeping here though here at Fort Meade as a holdover.

They basically screwed me by taking the only thing they could use to keep me here... my PT test.

THe worst part is that I passed and that is all you need. It's a most complicated situation which doesn't need to be. Anyone with common sense can see it, but why can't those above me see this.

They changed my record PT test into a diagnostic. You can't leave with a diagnostic. THere is generally no difference just a formality.

People get stuck here not being able to pass this test 5 or even 8 times.

I've passed it 4 times since I've been here. Most people in my field only take it 2 to 3 times. I passed and passed well, yet the army insists on this game.

I feel harassed by this command as well.

They made a mistake of telling me on my graduation day that I was starting the class over again. When I asked why, they had no answers.

It was a mistake. The person read the wrong name.

There are a lot of small things lately that make me hate the military.

If things don't improve forget about re-upping.

They want to improve soldier turnover, try not giving them million of things to contend with in terms of just plain dump mistakes.

Their reasoning is that I can't have a record test because I was injured earlier and I can't take a record test off an injury.

I did and they told me it was a record. THen they change it to a diagnostic. I had a fit for duty which is something you need to get once you've recovered. I had it a whole month before my record test.

I passed it as a record with my best score to date. THen they take it away saying it was for my benefit. How does getting stuck in a training environment with no training help me??? Beuhler? Beuhler?

Of course i thought i was healthy and my shins were hurting again so i went on the injured list again to rest my legs. Why? Because there are no days off for sore shins or injuries. You have to go see a Dr. who give you a min. of 2 weeks off running.

It ended 3 weeks again but they also have this thing called recovery which is double the injury list. This recovery prevents you from taking any test. That is what I'm on now.

Now I'm perfectly able to take the test again and again.

Get this plus I have to take this stupid test 2 more times. It's ridiculous.

They give people who fail all these ways out and multiple chances, me I get no breaks. It's most frustrating.

Oh and again i get told it's for my own good by my commander and my Drill Sgt.s say that's what I get for working the system, an assumption they've made.

I feel harassed because i feel this may be an unofficial manner to punish me.

And to be honest you won't find anyone why tries harder here.

It bugs the hell out of me.

My back recently has been killing me and I can't even check it out bacause it can keep me here longer.

PLus I got the flu and trust me, military training environments are awful places to get sick.

They make things really difficult especially when most people know, rest heals illness.

They make you jump through these hoops.

I hate this place so much right now that I would never encourage anyone to do this unless they had no choice or there love for country can withstand the frustrations i have.

My only thgought is that I haven't even been deployed yet, i hope this whole enlistment doesn't prove to be the most exhausting and mentally draining choice of my life.

I'm supposed to be at Airborne school at Benning, Georgia right now.

Instead I'm stuck, not doing anything and not going anywhere.

I'm not the only healthy and able body soldier stuck here.

You'd be amazed at how many soldier, which is one of their most limited resources are perfectly healthy and able to get out there and how they waste my time and their own by not using their heads.

What's worse, I'm supposed to be a public affairs specialist for them and paint them in a good light... oh man.

Not off to a good start.