I just started thinking of how everything just hasn't even come close to how I had imagined things in my life. It seems like all the choices in my life are alternatives to the actual situations and when those fail it makes me even more depressed.

On top of that I sort of am loosing hope in life in general. I'm just loosing hope is the operative word.

Boy am I a downer, you should bring me to a party, I am sure to brighten things up.