I have been thinking there is no drama in my life right now and, perhaps I have been so accustomed to it, it sort of is what has pushed me all these years. My life now if not filled with any meaningful goals or challenges and perhaps that is the cause for my feelings of stagnation. Oh I am a real genius to just figure that out now, duh! No but I realize that and see that. I guess I need to find a goal and destination. The part I will find difficult, is to really want whatever it is I will seek.