To me, America is a dream. I think what get's lost in the whole WAR issue is , how do Americans feel about America. George Bush's America is very worried about weapons and villains and security. Granted those are very important issues. However what about the changing faces of the American People? War negates all other issues because of the life that is at risk. I can't say that no one wants this war and I can't say all American's want this war. I can say that this issue is very split. Of course a decision needs to be made but what I hate about George Bush is the fact that I don't feel he has people in mind. I don't trust the man, I don't respect him, perhaps it's his image but he just doesn't illicit my trust as our best and brightest. George Bush in some way has to be an extension of ourselves, of our views. I think Presidency only works in some instances. Not everyone can be a great leader and possess all the great qualities we wish for.
I was thinking, if we scrutinized and knew as much about our president as we did the contestants on American Idol we would be a much more assured of our pick. Imagine the presidental elections being held in an American Idol like forum. I think that is the America of today. Image is important but isn't everything, because actual skills are required. I would just feel better if the people were better represented better.
If I had one wish, I'd wish humanity out of existance and have the world just exist without us.
We aren't a humble species, and I sometimes wish we would all be humbled. Not by anyone but by God himself. I am not saying pick on one group of people but everyone. We are all in it together. We are all equally flawed. As much as I wish for our growth if I am to live with this I just hope that we can find some semblance of peace and harmony.
I'm sort of holding my breat on the whole peace and harmony thing finding it's way to humanity but we'll see.
Because of my feelings recently I find myself wondering if I want to live. Seriously, this is not I hate life I want to die cry for help. I really wonder on a level of the meaning of worth of existance, do I enjoy life enough and see this existance as meaningful. Is this world worth living in? What I am worth to this world? We all ask ourselves these questions. I think we all hide from this because in the end there is only so much that can be done about this. I just can't seem to be able to stomach this. I think we all avoid this question because there is only so much we know we can do. It's alway easier to escape these thoughts but I know since I have been born my spirit has been screaming for answers.
I guess in the end I am one of those people that really want a better world.
I was thinking sort of comically, has anyone just killed themselves because they thought the world was worthless. Not because they didn't feel loved but simply because in their eyes God failed in creating us.